Sunday, June 10, 2012

I am a sentimental girl.  No question, I have nostalgic blood running through my veins.  So, it is no surprise that I have thoughts of that nature running through my mind at this time.  Yesterday was my 40th birthday.  I am now a 40 year old woman.

That doesn't scare me or surprise me,  but I AM inspired by the number.  It seems as if I an now a TRUE grownup.  Like perhaps I can stop waiting for the REAL mom to show up, the REAL wife to step in, the REAL actress to start playing the roles I play, while this understudy part that I've been playing comes to an end.  I am 40 years old now.

My birthday, the actual day, was such a day of celebration.  I had the privilege of sharing my celebration with a group of close friends and of course, my family.  It was a glorious morning of laughing and enjoying each other.  I have the best friends in the entire world.  They are sweet, fun, helpful, beautiful, inspiring, and altogether lovely.

My friends are the foundation of my world.  They are who make my world solid, fun, and worth it.  I felt so blessed that they would come to share in the joy of my turning 40.  Along side my girlfriends were my daughters and my mom, as well as my hubby, son, and dad.  These individuals help  complete the picture of my life.  I am not an island.  I absolutely cannot take credit for any day being my very own.  Other than the Lord, the people that He has provided for me help make my days fun, creative, challenging, full of love and work and enjoyment. The fruit of HIS love, is my very own love.  

Over the past decade the thing that I have learned the most about is love.  Love can save you.  Love can encourage you.  Love makes you happy and can also leave you disappointed .  Love puts a spark in your heart, causes you to sacrifice time, sleep and money.  Love rescues you from sadness, and pushes you straight into the arms of the One who is the only one who epitomizes TRUE love.

People, human kind, cannot fulfill all that Love is supposed to be.  I am learning that I cannot hope too much in the human sort of love, but I can always throw myself onto the love of the Father.  This is what I have learned and pursued over the last decade.  Love.

And as I continue to grow, I have complete Faith that God will continue to grow me into the true woman of love He has planned for me.  I will be the Mom that He has designed me to be, with love.  I will reflect His plan as the wife that He wants me to be.  As a sister, a daughter, a disciple, a friend... with the Lord living inside of me, I will learn more and more, and live more and more like the person that I have been created to be.

Being 40 excites me.  I anticipate growth and humility and peace as the next decade reveals its days to me.