Friday, May 22, 2009

mind...full

This weekend isn't going how I thought it was going to. I wasn't expecting to be at home tonight. I was supposed to be at Beth Moore's conference up in Laramie. I wasn't expecting to be so preoccupied today. I had a chiropractor appointment and drove past the office for a mile before I realized I missed it. I wasn't expecting Marky to like the costume I put together at the last minute. She loved it. Hallelujah. I wasn't expecting to get to sit down for coffee with a friend this afternoon... because I wasn't expecting to be around this afternoon. I'm so glad to have gotten some time with her.

Some days just don't go as I expect them to. Maybe that's a good thing.

We are leaving in the morning for a 2 night, 3 day camping trip. I am glad we are leaving. I need to go. As we leave home together as a family, I hope to leave this full mind of mine at home. My heart is hurting over the pain that some people I love are experiencing. I'm burdened and I can't stop praying for them. I'm also trying to figure out how to fix the hurt, even though I know I can't. But God can, and He's a better fixer anyways. While I'm in the mountains, I'm hoping to relax and be mindful of being with my family - making memories, loving on each one of them, cherishing the moments that are slippery and will be missed if my mind is elsewhere. I am not very good at being present or "in the moment" as it is often said. My thoughts are usually fixed on yesterday or tomorrow, but I'm asking God to help me with this very thing this weekend. Even though it's not what I was expecting, I am completely convinced that it's all going just as He has planned. I'm so thankful to trust my days to Him, as well as my loved ones with Him. These next few days, my deepest desire is to see things from His perspective. Praise the Lord that He resides over it all! I want to have fun and leave my "mind fulls", my worries, my expectations all behind (along with several other things that I will INCONVENIENTLY forget to pack, I just know it - please don't let it be my pillow... remember your pillow, Heather.)

Happy Memorial Day!


Colossians 3:1-2
So if you're serious about living this new resurrection life with Christ, act like it. Pursue the things over which Christ presides. Don't shuffle along, eyes to the ground, absorbed with the things right in front of you. Look up, and be alert to what is going on around Christ—that's where the action is. See things from His perspective.