Friday, May 16, 2008

I thought that I would blog sooner!

All week long, I've thought "Oh! I could blog about that!" and then the day passed me by. Hubby has been gone all week and the minutes go by quickly, then slowly, then quickly, then slowly... The kids and I have had fun times together, but there's also been those times when I've just wanted to scream. Sometimes I don't want it to all fall on my shoulders!! I don't want to discipline, I don't want to correct, I don't want to teach, I'm tired of picking up the toys and the dishes and hushing the tears and the whining. Some days I want to be the one to walk through the door and have the whole house erupt in celebration or have the phone ring and hear the excitement pulsate the room at the sound of my voice on the line. Perspective... that's what I keep telling myself. It's all about perspective. There's no pulsating or celebration when I'm around. BUT... I get to experience the ordinary, everyday life that is not in and of itself anything to go wild about, but is sprinkled throughout with moment's of precious words, funny expressions, eternal investments, evidence of hearts that are being trained to know the difference between right and wrong. This morning, I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world.

However... ask me at 6:00 tonight and I might be tempted to trade it all in for 5 minutes of peace and quiet!